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Copyright Lyne's Creations August 2012, All Rights Reserved
You may NOT take copies of these poems for any reason.

Note: I often come back, re-read and even edit my poems. They, like me,
are a work in progress. I may change a word here and there or I may add
a whole stanza!  Some have art, and some will get illustrated later on.


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Gardening In My Soul

When the weeds of fear grow too large,
I will show them who is in charge!
I have all the power that I need,
To remove those insidious weeds!

I was given tools that I require,
To be the person that I desire,
In this garden that is me,
I'll plant the flowers I want to see!

After all is said and done,
I really am the only one,
To cultivate the adult I am,
I'll blossom forth by my own hand!

~ Lyne, August 8, 2012
Dedicated to myself and my ally; my therapist!

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Late At Night

Late at night as I lay in bed,
Poems come dancing in my head.
Like glittering stars when it's barely morn,
Words from inside my soul are born.

They gently fall like a spring rain,
Bright blossoms of thought they remain,
Always helping me to attain,
A sense of wonder in place of pain.
~Lyne's Creations                       

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How Can I Express?

How can I express?
Love lost IS a death!

Once again I do weep,
My wound is so very deep,
That I know I will retain,
The brutal scars of this pain,
All the years that I remain,
Trapped upon this mortal plane.

How can I express?
In grief I do regress!

I move forward but a step,
Then find something I have kept,
That plunges me back into regret!
Why does it hurt so very much?
Moving forward, loosing touch.
At any straw I will clutch.

How can I express?
I must confess!

I'm tired of this refrain!
I'm sick of all this pain!
I want to grow, I want to gain!
And so I reach deep within,
Call on all my power that is Lyne!
I know this battle I WILL WIN!

How can I express?
My growing awareness?

I have all the power that I need,
To grow this garden free of weeds!
This beautiful garden that is me!
I know myself, I always strive!
I will grow, I will survive!
Not only that, I WILL THRIVE!
~Lyne's Creations                       

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I was so "in the zone" writing this poem...as long as I stayed with MY FEELINGS,
It poured out of me! It/I seemed to go through all the stages and it/I came to the words
at the end, I felt SUCH POWER, that it stunned me! Even as I re-read the positive
words of the last half, I am filled with that same sense of power, HOPE and relief!

As I force myself to KEEP READING the book I mention on
these pages, and I keep expressing my feelings...I am seeing
movement! The movement coming from, and working with: the Abandonment
Grief stages described in Susan's book: Shattering, Withdrawal, Internalizing, Rage...
and the last one I am just coming into: Lifting.
Lifting IS just that (for me, anyway) a physical-Emotional-Spiritual LIFTING feeling!
It's relief, it's joyous, it's refreshing, it's HOPE!

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*I cannot more Highly Recommend the book*
The Journey from Abandonment to Healing: Turn the End of a Relationship into the Beginning of a New Life by Susan Anderson. 
It's not "just" for loss of relationships...there is huge value in reading it for any crisis that brings on Abandonment PTSD!

I believe Susan- that "PTSD" of emotional crisis/abandonment is very real and more professionals should recognize the reality of
this!  "Abandonment grief" wounds SO MANY of us in this world!    Anyone who has lost a parent/parents, and/or been abused
in childhood in any way, can have that everlasting, draining wound... Look how many people resort to obsessive behaviors, (like
addictions), & compulsive behaviors!  I did... I still do at times. Everyone tries to fill that hole,
heal their wounds that they are perhaps not even conscious of...

I am in the beginning of creating a "work book" of my own to help myself heal each day...I am "living it" now,
and when I feel it's clear enough, I will post the step by step "how to" here for anyone to try for themselves. But as I always
say: THERAPIST RECOMMENDED! and on that subject...you can shop for a therapist, you can interview to see if a therapist
is a good fit, if you feel comfortable...if you feel something is off, move on and find another! Therapists are people too, and there
are those who are good at it, and those who are not so good at it. Just like any doctor... you need to find one that you can work with!

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Go to the Top of Poetry Page I for an index of all the Poetry pages! OR!-Just change the number
in the url address to the next higher one, and hit enter to go to that page faster!

I have so many pages, it's getting crazy for my dyslexic mind to keep adding
individual links to each page thereafter.  I am up to 13 pages as of this update with more always on the way!